Saturday, October 10, 2009
BACK FROM CAMBODIA!

I'm soooo glad to be back in singapore. Cambodia was sooooooo awesome!!!!! So many testimonies. Gonna share a few here.

Day 1, we were still together as a whole group of 32, there was this particular event in a local church where brx shared something that really stirred up the passion in the locals there, challenging them to take that step to share the gospel. When we went around praying for those who responded to the call, for the very first person i prayed for, this gush of the Holy spirit flowed through me. Immediately i teared, coz i knew that God was doing something really awesome in that local church. It is now my daily prayer to pray for that church to grow more :)

Day 2, splitted into our different groups that morning, said our goodbyes and went to minister. We got to the home where the kids were staying in. We had to immediately go to the school just behind the home to start ministering. Had alot of fun with the lil school kids there, roughly around 4-7 years old i think? Because the school shares the same compound as the home, almost all of them are the orphans from the home. Anyways, after playing with the school kids, this teacher stayed back to thank us. God spoke to me through that teacher (that teacher is a christian btw).
TEACHER : Thank you all so much for spending your time n money to come to cambodia. We know that our country is poor, and its people like you who help us. We start this school to give these kids a foundation for their education, because these kids have no hope for themselves.
God then spoke to me saying, "I want you to be the one to bring hope to these children. This is your purpose for this trip.
Later in the afternoon, went to teach drums to this older cambodian teenager, he was 19. I'm not very well versed in drums, but i tried to teach him anyways. :) God helped me teach him.

DAY 3
-played my guitar by myself, and then a few kids came to me, then lots of kids crowded around me. Aft i "performed" for them, a few of them stayed back. They conversed to me in english, (some of them are actually quite good, especially those i taught in music). They asked if i could teach em guitar, so i did. These few kids are the home's musicians, and they play for the kids every sat n sun. I prayed for them in my heart for God to bless them with skills and passion to serve Him.
ALSO, after praying for them, i had nothing to do. As i was tired, i just lazed around, resting, when suddenly God told me to go help cheryl and edward. I honestly didn't want to, because they were at the school behind teaching english, and i wasn't very energetic at that point of time. However, i still went albeit feeling lazy. I went in and helped support cheryl for the lessons. After the lessons, cheryl came to me saying that my arrival was soo timely because they needed one more person to demostrate an activity for the kids, and just at that time, i popped out. Praise God! Thankfully i was obedient to Him :)

DAY 4)
Remember on how i said on day 2, that God said my purpose was to give hope? Well, God proved it one more time. During one of our bible studies with the kids, we asked them to draw out their aspirations and dreams. One kid that i taught guitar to showed me his paper. Inscribed on it was "worship leader". He carried on with these words, "you help me". Wow.. i was so touched at that point and God gently reminded me that i was to help these kids and give them a hope. God is sooo awesome!
Anyways, i taught this girl keyboard too. She was soo determined to learn. She kept practising the same song like.. over 20 times? She kept playing until it was time for her to have dinner. About 2 hours. Simply amazing.. I could sense that she really wanted to worship God with her music. Anyways, the rest of the team went to share their testimonies in the village, so i stayed in the orphanage and starting playing drums. Suddenly this bunch of kids came running to me, so i taught them drums too. They took turns to play, and they were as usual, pushy. Each wanted to play the drums first without taking turns. I taught them the spirit of sharing there and then. These kids rarely have something, and when they get something, they are definitely relunctant to share, but i definitely taught them to care for each other more :)

DAY 5) (LAST DAY AT CHILDREN HOME)
Went to a village with SNN. We prayed for this family who had this family curse of blindness. All 3 of this woman's children couldn't see properly. We laid hands on them and prayed for God to heal. Because i was squatting n praying for them, (the kids are really short.. so yeah), i felt this sudden stench. I knew that it was the evil spirit being cast out at that moment. Although not all 3 were healed, they could see clearer, and i know that God WILL continue to do His awesome works in them :)
Went to share christ in another village as well, only mangaged to witness to 2 homes. For the first home, salvation came to them through God's providence. I started sharing to them about myself, when suddenly my mind turned blank. Thank God for my teammates who immediately came in to help me out. We tried to share with that family, but it turned out that this woman and her household believed in all sorts of gods, including Jesus, and she turned us down. But later as the conversation deepened and we starting praying silently, that woman suddenly said that she went to church 3 days ago, and when she did, she felt a peace that was so strong, like she had no worry in the world. Then she said she wanted to be saved by Jesus, but just didn't know how. So we led her in prayer. The other house wasn't so keen on accepting God, so we just prayed for blessings for them.
We went back to the home, knowing well that it was our last night with them. I went to teach another teenager, about 20+, guitar. He asked me why i was being so good to him. I explained that i wanted very much to help him. Allow me to elaborate, for that last night, we had a grand finale for the kids, we had paper lanterns and mooncakes and other goodies for them, and we could play with them till later that night. The guy i was teaching asked "why don't you want to play with the kids, why do u want to teach me". As i pondered on his words later that evening, it dawned on me that when foreigners come, they normally cater to the younger and cuter kids, hence the older teenagers do not feel loved at all. I'm so glad that i managed to show him some genuine care..
I cried that night. All the students that i taught, about 5 guys n 2 girls, were saying so many touching things to me. In their simple english, their gratitude was even more real. I just broke down when they hugged me whilst whispering words of thanks to me, praying for me. I prayed for each and everyone of them. You couldn't imagine the pain i felt. In that short 4 days, i had bonded with total strangers, and had opened my heart to them, loved them, cared for them, prayed with them, blessed them, reminded them about God, and now it was time to say goodbye. They gave me cards and other gifts and i just kept crying on the bus trip home. God's presence was definitely strong that night. I left knowing fully well that i had accomplish my purpose that God had entrusted me with, bringing them hope.. :)

God taught me so much in this trip. I'm ultimately thankful to Him.. Other miracles and stories are just too long to be in this post, and if you're really interested, i will tell you if u ask :)

Thursday, September 17, 2009
simply.. infuriating.

Just feel like letting out some steam.. Argued with my parents about an hour ago.. really bad row. I'm just so irritated with the words that they say. So many hurtful remarks were exchanged, mostly from me as well. I guess i just kinda burst.. Been bottling up my frustrations with them for too long i reckon. Don't really wanna talk about what happened, but i got really broken up inside. So much that i cried. Not afraid to admit it, strong men do cry.. aha. But in any case, i've decided not to talk to them at all, lest it aggravates the situation. I love you both, Mom, Dad. I really really do. But i hate it when we argue, and if talking to you might mean that we spark off something again, i'd rather shut up. Sorry
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
SENTOSA!

WOO HOO! Today's sentosa trip was sooo dang fun la! gotta do it again. Hung out with abel jiayao jiahao john koktiong matt n ryan, played volleyball, threw ppl in the sea, watched a movie and went home.

The movie was kinda stupid.. it was I love you, Beth cooper. Well at least there were a few laughs, not like year one, with nothing funny in it.. Thats 2 lousy movies in a row, danggit.. should have watched G-force. o wells..

O YEAH! and today i got pissed off at john and his awesome brain. I think he's so clever sometimes.. Pretty drained already.. lookin forward to tommorow's activites. GYM N GUITAR FTW! MT training too :D

Decided to cut my hair tmr.. can't wait for the new look too. yay.
Monday, September 7, 2009
not such an early night after all..

I'm supposed to be asleep now.. but due to unforseen circumstance, here i am again. I really think that these late nights are gonna be the death of me, but why does it seem that i can't be bothered. Today was pretty slackish, somehow, my priorities still aren't set right. I really need to sit down and get closer to God. My heart's just not in it these few days. bah.

On the other hand, had alot of fun with abel today. He came over and we started jammin loads of songs. Haven't laughed like that in ages.. gotta do it again soon! Meanwhile, i have to start updating myself with new songs, my song vault is pretty empty lol.

Can't wait for mission trip training on weds. SOOOOO ready to go to cambodia haha! This month is about to get on a roooolll!!! Loads of activites coming up :) sentosa tmr too! Alrighty, shall head to bed soon, after a snack.. bye all :)
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Pretty good sat

~woke up at 9, and dropped my phone by accident. As i sleep on the top bunk of a double decker bed which i share with my bro (yes we share rooms), my phone dropped a pretty loooong way down. I heard the crash then decided not to care and continued sleeping till 11. After which, i went to collect my phone, only to realise that the battery and case fell out. Hunted for it for about 10 mins before finding it. After fixing back my phone, it started jamming worst then ever. Oh well, stupid phone.. Went to meet lz in church, then had cell and finally service :)

I think that the mission trip slots are too limited la! 20 slots only sia.. how to squeeze in lol. Even before i hand up already got 40+ people give forms liao. Hope my cg peaps can get through though.. haha! There's cafe duty tommorow, which means i have to wake up at like.. 7.30 in the morn.. sigh. Better prepare to sleep soon.
Friday, September 4, 2009
after a long long time.. =D

Hi!!! its been ages since i blogged.. kinda lazy. Come to think of it, i just want somewhere that i can let my feelings out. Hence, a blog! :) Not really to keen on people knowing abt it though, just want to type out what i feel.

Mission trip 09 to cambodia!! Wasn't so sure if i wanted to go or not simply because i felt that i'd be.. alone there. Budden upon realising xuele,jiaxun and not to mention my favourite johnny boy were planning to go, i figured i'd just go too. Ha! Touched or not :P If john doesn't go.. most prolly i won't go too :D Really really glad that he's going. 4-10 oct is gonna be awesome (that is if we manage to go la.. ahaha).

Well nothing much happened today, i went to gym in the morn, came back home, dota-ed, slept, then woke up to play ball. I dunno, but i think i've gotten kinda stagnant in bball.. can't really improve. I honestly want to play better la. Oh well, at least the guys and I had fun! We watched a really cool basketball match between the bukit batok CSC team and the frequentees of the court we went to. It was totally awesome to spectate. The moves, the skills, the SPEED! goodness.. so fast. Kinda makes me wonder if i'd ever be that fast. After the court lights went out, john, jiahao, jiayao, larry, quekqi and myself continued playing. Was soo fun la! Really enjoyed the experience although it was almost impossible to see the ball. qq n jh are like.. awesome players la, and so are jy n larry. John improved tremendously too :D Glad to have been able to train with them haha. I guess i really do enjoy the sport. =D

Oh well, it's raining now.. perfect for sleeping, so i guess i'm off to bed then :D Nights everbody :)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
WAHHH BLOOD AHHH!!!

Hey! back from the medical checkup.. honestly it was thorough until cannot thorough anymore hahaha.. it was pretty.. complicated though, i had to move around the building to different stations to checkup different parts of my body. AND for the whole of yesterday, i was praying that there wouldn't be injections.. suay loh, God wan me suffer HEHEH =P First station was urine test and blood samples -.- super funny la, got like, 8-9 of us, some being quite old men, peeing into a cup.. AND SOME PEOPLE MISSED -_- SUPER FUNNY LA. Now i know why the guys toilet always so... dirty. Cannot aim for nuts one sia they all. The blood sample part was horrible terrible vegetable la. The needle not say very big la, but the container was -.- like test tube size sia.. he fill until the brim -_- i was peering at my blood wondering how much was needed lol. The blood so dark la.. like this colour =/ i shall continue posting in this lol. Anyways, after that had the hearing tests, xray on teeth and chest, genitals test and etc etc.. Took about 2.5 hrs..

Now i think the effects of losing a test-tube full of blood is taking over.. im feeling dizzy lol. i should probably go and rest now sooo.. ciao =)