Sunday, February 15, 2009


hey guys! its 1.55 a.m on my clock over here haha.. just had a little tiff with my parents =X Sooo to mom and dad even if u do know i have a blog, listen i'm not a kid anymore, i do understand that you want me to have plenty have rest, but i don't see what's wrong with sleeping at 2a.m and waking up at 8a.m to do my own things! Its not like i stay at home to use the computer all the way till 2 in the morn everyday right? Whatever it is, i seriously don't want to argue with the both of you. So why is it when i talk to you guys nicely you both always have to give me that black face instantly? In any case, especially to dad, i dont really like the way you look at the whole polytechnic school system. Listen, the key reason for me going to poly ISN'T to have more time to go out or spend more time on the computer. I've been telling you time and again that it even begins to bore me, that i'm not confident of handling the stress in JC. you saw how i couldn't even discipline myself to sit down and study for the O's, and you want me to take A's? you urself told me that i had the freedom to decide.. doesn't look like it now does it? It's still u who gets to decide my life isn't it? when i make a choice for myself, and it goes along with you, then its ok! but when i make a choice for myself, BUT it goes against what you want, then u begin to directly oppose every single thing i do.

one more thing dad, i really dislike the way you put poly students down. ESP when u begin talking about my friends that i hang out with. Do u not understand that my friends are the most hardworking people i've ever met? Do u not pause and wonder why i'm still able to do average without SEEMING to study to u? Has it not occured to you that i may well be studying along with my friends? guess not. Every word you say about polytechnics is just bad bad and bad. I understand that its expensive for you, but i'm willing to work, i'm willing to do crazy things i don't wanna do (like sign on to rsaf) to help you pay off the money my education is gonna cost. Don't come telling me that its not about money coz i dont want you to pay so much either. I really wanna prove myself that i'm able to do well in poly, but with you saying negative things about the poly culture BEFORE it starts..? C'mon dad, that ain't cool. i can't believe u actually say things like "i knew it! the only reason u wanted to go poly was to skive and waste time at home." i mean honestly, that really irks me. Do i waste time at home? just because ur rarely at home to see me working doesn't mean i'm not right? How can i talk to you when all you ever talk to me about is my future? Can't we even talk about anything ELSE? Before the O's all u ever talked about was why u never saw me studying. now after O's all you ever talk about is how poly life is bad and will ruin me n blah blah blah. Listen, i've met tons of poly ppl who are so hardworking and honest in the way they live. Can you not see that poly-grads are no longer inferior to JC-grads? Yes they have a confirmed slot in universities, but i'm more confident of myself to study in poly, where i have a longer term of 3 years to do my course well! I'm well aware of what i'm doing thank you very much. I'm so sorry that i can't be who you want me to me, someone who will go to a JC and do well and go to university. I'll try my best to go to a uni, but how can i prove myself when the term has not even started and you've alrd said things like "its impossible to get to a uni, only the top 5% of courses get in", or things like "for your course, only NTU offers 50 slots for both poly students and JC students, so you'll most probably not get a chance."

To mom, honestly i'm sorry that i've to just ignore you and dad at times. I feel its best not to talk to you guys if all we ever talk about is arguing. I hope you understand what i do when i just walk out on a disuccsion that we're having. I just hope that you'll see things from my perspective and at least tell me where i'm wrong so i can change it. Its not cool to keep going tgt with dad and scolding me for..
1) going out
2) using the computer
3) not looking for a job.

When i go out, i don't spend money do i? i've been living on my $120 allowance a month for the past few months haven't I? When i use the computer, i don't exactly play all the time do i? its only at night where my friends are around so i play! do u see me hogging the computer in the morning or afternoon? i make sure i balance my diet don't i? lastly, do u think job's are that easy to find? Haven't you personally seen me making trips over to places to look for jobs? is it my fault that no one wants to hire me(although im obviously the best there is LOL). Job's don't fall from the sky the moment you want them. It takes time. Won't you let me think about my own life?